A few months ago I downloaded the Saved in the City app because I felt like it was a great network to stay connected with other Christian women and to be inspired. Once a month they host an empowerment call and I always hang up feeling extremely empowered and refreshed. Like “wow, someone else gets it.” They also send morning inspirational texts to my phone via push alert from their app. Lately, their morning messages have really been speaking to me.
With that being said, I settled. I’m not ashamed to admit that for the last three months, I settled. I was uncomfortable, tired of being home all the time, tired of being broke and I just needed my life to pick up…quick. I needed a change. A change of scenery, a change of lifestyle and a change of habit…so naturally I jumped at something that wasn’t for me, but would give me that escape I was looking for either way. I found myself going down a career path that didn’t intrigue me at all. It mean sure the salary was high, but I didn’t need that type of misery in my life especially if it wasn’t doing something that I absolutely love.
Last week, I talked about figuring out what’s causing you to struggle. There are two types in my case…one, I was at a place where my social life was placed on hold because I had to work on my foundation, you know, things like finances, bills, etc. So my life wasn’t going as quickly as I wanted it. Plus I was buried under deadlines and trying to organize everything I had going on. The other was me trying to find comfort in uncomfortable situations. I wanted to be done with everything that was causing me to struggle regardless of if it was stretching me and to move on to something safer. Safe is a bad place to be…as ironic as that sounds. It’s boring, you don’t learn anything and you’re certainly not growing into all you could be.
So I started this week fresh. I dropped all those dark clouds hanging over my head. I learned to be my own sun…as Shonda did in her Year of Yes book. I adopted the mindset that I am the curator of my life. God is handing me opportunities and I’m curating accordingly.
So this morning, my morning inspirational text left me with this message:
But God’s not finished. He’s waiting around to be gracious to you. He’s gathering strength to show mercy to you. God takes the time to do everything right–everything. Those who wait around for him are the lucky ones. (Isaiah 30:18)
It’s take so much willpower to be patient and listen when you’re being told to wait. You’re not being told to wait to slow you down, or increase your financial issues, or issues with love…you’re being told to wait because there’s so much better in store for you. Those who are hasty miss out on great things while those who wait reap the good. Imagine what being hasty all the time would look like. Constantly jumping the gun on every thing in your life. You’d have a life full of regret. Well needless to say, I let that job go, I let that relationship go and blew a carefree bubble, jumped inside it and decided on carry on.